Hey all! Sorry it's been a while. I was away on vacation and it took me a minute to get back into the swing of things.
While I was gone I spent 5 days in Florida with 6 other people. While that might sound amazing (which it was), it was 7 people in 1 hotel room for 5 days. And then add into that equation that being around people exhausts me. To put it lightly, I was a bit worried about how I was going to handle it. I'm lucky that I was with a group of people who understand mental illness, and were totally okay with me taking time to myself during the trip, but I was very self-conscious about seeming like a party pooper.
What I managed to do during these 5 days was find little pockets of time to myself that felt like a vacation from my vacation. One of the ones that helped me the most was the fact that I got the pull out couch for a bed. This probably doesn't sound like a great option for some people, but for me it created space away from everyone else who was sleeping in a crowded bedroom. This allowed me to start and end each day with a moment to myself. One of the other main things that helped was anytime I got up to do something, whether it was to get a drink or even just to pee, I embraced the moment. I took that minute or two to check in with myself, breathe, and relax.
Vacation is supposed to be relaxing, but I'm sure we've all been on trips we've found far from it. It's important to find ways to make it work for you, even if it's just when mentally checking in while sitting on the toilet.