I’ve always joked that people are exhausting, but turns out I was incredibly insightful when I said that. I have been working from home for three weeks, and to say that I have had a spike in energy is an understatement. I have been getting SO much done around the house. I am talking cleaning, I am talking reorganizing, I am talking cooking. It’s at a point where I have realized that the level of exhaustion I feel on a daily basis is probably not normal. On a regular day, I have to have a nap during my lunch hour just to make it through the day, and then I barely have the energy to reheat something for supper.
I was on a call with my team from work, and we were checking in to see how everyone was doing. People were sharing things that were troubling them, and to lighten it I said “Well, as an introvert with social anxiety, I am doing great.” And maybe that’s what’s wrong with me. So much of my energy is spent caring about what people are thinking about me, and trying to act normal, that by the end of the day I have no energy to actually be myself.
When I think about going back to the office (eventually), I actually kind of dread it. I am really happy working from home and not having to deal with people in person. If I could work from home and go into the office once a week, that would be ideal. The idea of having to be around people 9-5 for five days a week seems absolutely ludicrous to me. Don’t get me wrong, I love the people I work with (well, most of them… let’s be real, I can’t like everybody), but they are still people. And I am not comfortable around people. Working from home with my dogs watching over me, that is my ideal.
So yeah, people are exhausting. I love being on my own. And COVID-19 might have a silver lining after all.